All I Wanted To Say

i'm sorry

although i've repeated it for few times

but this is what i've to say

i've tried my best to twist my words to suit the situation

and to avoid bad feelings from approaching her

yet i need to express what i want to

i cant stand seeing another one repeating thing that i've done before

she is a good girl

she doesnt deserve to be hurt

someone taught me a lesson in the past

i learnt it and i wish to teach her too

i know her friends have lectured her alot in the school

and she was frustrated

yet i did the same thing again

im sorry

yet i still need to continue

i dont wish to see another 'MC' again

and i dont wish to see her being hurt

no matter what outcome it would be

i hope one day she will understand what i wished to express just now

that's all i wanted to say

and no worries i've nothing more to say and to mumble

everything happened tonight remind me of the past

and somehow has indirectly resuscitated/enhanced the phobia

no one's fault and no one to be blamed

it's just a natural phenomena or a reflex reaction i should say

*in case u're here to leave a comment, be anonymous, i don't wish to br

ing trouble to u*

and to others :

stop disturbing while im in serious mood

stop instructing me what to do

i know what i am doing

and im clear with what i am doing

dont cross my border line and piss me off please

thanks

nites