I'm here

everyone has the right to choose

to listen or not to listen

hurtful words and cruel facts

are always hard to be accepted

and are hard to be convinced

you cant blame anyone not to listen to what you talk

cause everyoen has the right

i knew what she was thinking

she wished to avoid those cruel facts

but i have to tell her

as i said i dont wish her to be hurt

so at the end of the call

i chose not to continue to mumble and lecture

cause i realise that one will only learn when one really encounters it

just like myself. lol

many scolded me before and i listened alot too

yet i only learnt it when i really ecountered it

so i think it applies to everyone

i did not feel angry
neither do i feel irritating

i was feeling rather bad

when she mentioned something like this to me

"so ur paperplane i will pass it to bla bla bla"

since she opted this

alright it's fine then

i will respect her

again, no forcing=)

and after listening to the way she ended the call

i was left blank and feeling rather bad and perhaps abit uphappy

i could not figure out the reason why i was feeling so

perhaps all these reminds me of how i was treated last time

both the scenes look alike but i know they're actually different

just i cant differentiate them

and after all

i felt like i was again in the phobia

these reminds me of the past and the phobia

perhaps i need some time

i do not know

=)

i remember my promise

and i know my promise is still on pending

depeding on the reactions of the other two peoples

i don't mean to hurt you, through any words or any promise

and seriously i did not i have hurt you

it was my bad and sincerely,

I'm Sorry =]

and

I will try my best to realise my promise

the first and ever promise i've made to you

don't cry

keep your tears

because we are far apart

and i could not realise my second promise

i could not wipe away your tears

=)

and again all these 2 promises are depending on the other two

i cant decide it till the day before i realise it

i will try my best

what we can do is

keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best

sutdy hard yea k=)