30Dec2009

I'm sitting on the bed in The Spaulding Hotel at Union Square in San Francisco now

AhZe popped up and chat with me in msn just now

was so surprise and had some chat with him

he told me that xx and zs have also flown to us ad..

only then i realized that most of the buddies have transfered and flown to states

left only some of them

no more familiar faces loitering around in inti

no more car pooling and have lunch together

no more roti bakar session

i missed all the moments in inti

when u lose something

u will eventually found out that u got even more

when i was in relationship

i will tend to sacrifice most of the things to fulfill her

and thought that it would be worth it

well.. ;)

anyways when i turned single

i thought it would be miserable

but apparently i made more friends

and most of them become buddies in short time..

truly appreciate the presence of them 

;)

Guilt

did something i should not have
i feel bad for myself and others
it's just hard to be overcame
but i will try to
that's the path i should be taking
i don't want to do something others did
that's absurd

whee!!

i found out something

which is kind of expected

i had no feeling towards the most aggressive actions;)

wheeee!!

Here I come.. Los Angeles and the San Francisco!

曾经说好的约定 

随着时间滚动和事情的演变

就逾期无效了

从我口中说出的承诺都实现了

至少我记得的都实现了 =p

有些实现了 只是你误会了 以为我说话不算话

所以只有自己心里知道 也无所谓了 嘻嘻

就只剩这个 但是我不曾承诺这个

因为它对我来说太遥远 处境会让它太难达成了

只是俩人的共识 哪知它是那么地薄弱

让她一戳就破 

这个共识不久后就会实现了

这次变动的可能性大幅度减低了

但是对它的期待也大幅度的减低了

也可以说几乎没了

每当听见别人提起 还是朋友说起

总会提醒我 叫醒心底一丝丝的恨和遗憾 

可是很快地又被我的理智消灭了

同时也是因为事过境迁

记性不好的我 已经忘得差不多了 =p

现在的我 很快乐 

真想不到 我也有这样的一天啊

爽啊！ 哈哈

我的部落格
也不会再以你喜欢的青色来撰写

不必忍气 不必吞声

不必吵架 不必退让 

不必烦恼 不必顾虑

不必担心 不必受气

不必掉泪 一个字爽！

哈哈！


你常会问我要去哪里
我会把车里的cd调回‘专属天使’ 
然后回答你 


你想去的地方 就是我的方向

可是事过境迁

你想去的地方 

再也不是我的方向 

=)

洛杉矶

旧金山(三藩市)

我来了！！

My Winter Trip to California (1)

I'm now in Fresno, California

This is my third day here

I have one month of winter break so I decided to pay a visit

Thanks to Arrol for providing accommodation

A nice house indeed.

Day 1 - Dec 10, 2009

My first time to fly with American Airlines ;)

Landed in Fresno Air Terminal On Time - PST12.55pm

Arrol and his friend, Jason Chin picked me up from the airport around 1pm.

Thanks to them and also thanks to Jason for giving a us ride to many places. 

I have almost visited half of the Fresno I guess.

We went to the Dog House Grill and had the famous Tri-Tip Steak Sandwich!

It is truly awesome!

Tri-Tip Steak Sandwich

Arrol and me bought the same backpack from The Big 5

It was priced as 99.99 but when we paid, 

it was discounted to 69.99. 

A good deal indeed!

At the night, we have some homemade pancake as dinner!

Never knew that pancake is so good! Thanks to Arrol! ;)

Butter and Jam

Day 2 - Dec 12, 2009

He brought me to walk around in his campus yesterday and I have tried the Panda Express

It's 6 dollars but it is definitely worth it! (compare to what I get in Embry Riddle)

We went to the MSO meeting last night and it was great!

They cooked penang laksa, curry chicken + nasi lemak with eggs and sambal!

Also, it was the birthday of a Malaysian girl

They bought a Caramel flavored ice cream cake from Baskin Robbin for her

We stayed there from 4pm to 2am as it was Friday night, but they are having final on coming Monday!

As usual, everyone enjoyed this..haha

Day 3 - Dec 12, 2009
It's Dec 13 today and we get up by 4pm. 

The sun sets at 4.30pm so basically it sets before I have a chance to look at it. 

What a great way to spend a day!

We are gonna have some fried rice later ;)

Looking forward to the rest of my California trip!

Aik Aik

I was doing my assignments when I bumped into one of my best buddy in msn few days back
this guy is funny
and we used to update each other with latest 'news'
haha!
it was like 5pm in Florida here..and it was only 6am in Malaysia!
damn..why did he wake up in the early morning?
so i decided to disturb him
and we have some good chat..
posted below are the screenshots!
haha..catch up with u soon yu aik~!!
i know you will like this post alot dont you? :D

Friday & Halloween!

It's Friday,

It's Halloween,

Orlando,

I'm coming!! 
=D

The 72th day in Florida

My blog has been dead for the past 2 months

this is due to my laziness..hahah

It's been more than 2 months since I first stepped onto Florida

Everything has been quite good and I have settled down quite well

i applied too a few airlines for internship and eventually my friend has got the invitation from ExpressJet

i'm yet to hear anything. Eurocopter Malaysia replied and told me that I will be notified within 2 weeks if I'm shortlisted!

Let's keep hope on the other airlines and Eurocopter Malaysia =)

The last thing I want to mention is something has changed tremendously and unexpectedly since I departed

Well I don't wish to give any comment on that and it will always be part of life and I don't wish that the issue is brought up again

I stay neutral in the issue and everything is up to fate =)

Good luck to myself! & strive for future!

16 August 2009

7.21 am

I'm here and i did not sleep through the night

Leaving to Florida at 6.40pm

Just finish settling everything

and as usual luggage packing is always done at the eleventh hour

Surprisingly till now i don't have much special feelings yet

but nobody knows when the airport authority announces the boarding of flight starts

nothing much to say

take care guys

gotta miss u all

and gotta miss penang

=)

Construction On Hold

Yeah

made some minor changes onto my blog

will keep on reconstructing it when i'm free

it's time to move on!

=D

Says the lyrics

开始懂了
孙燕姿

我竟然没有调头
最残忍那一刻

静静看你走 一点都不像我

原来人会变得温柔
是透澈的懂了

爱情是流动的 不由人的
何必激动着要理由

相信你只是怕伤害我 不是骗我
很爱过谁会舍得

把我的梦摇醒了
宣布幸福不会来了

用心酸微笑去原谅了

也翻越了

有昨天还是好的

但明天是自己的开始懂了 快乐是选择

How long i've not been listening to this song

my ex introduced this song to me

and she told me it's a song girl would love to use to console themselves

well i found out i did that too,

at least for some of the times

and not this time, of course

the blue parts applied to me,

but not the green=)

i don't bluff myself and i don't do that anymore

but i still believe in what the green-colored lyric says

but the fact is always cruel

and i've accepted it

looking at the blue-colored lyrics

i feel proud of myself

no one will ever expect that one day i will make such decision

not even myself

but hey, i did!

yeah im praising myself

loving myself damn much

lol

a simple reason behind all these

i learnt and i know

明天是自己的 快乐是选择

我选择了 所以我很快乐

=D

I'm here

everyone has the right to choose

to listen or not to listen

hurtful words and cruel facts

are always hard to be accepted

and are hard to be convinced

you cant blame anyone not to listen to what you talk

cause everyoen has the right

i knew what she was thinking

she wished to avoid those cruel facts

but i have to tell her

as i said i dont wish her to be hurt

so at the end of the call

i chose not to continue to mumble and lecture

cause i realise that one will only learn when one really encounters it

just like myself. lol

many scolded me before and i listened alot too

yet i only learnt it when i really ecountered it

so i think it applies to everyone

i did not feel angry
neither do i feel irritating

i was feeling rather bad

when she mentioned something like this to me

"so ur paperplane i will pass it to bla bla bla"

since she opted this

alright it's fine then

i will respect her

again, no forcing=)

and after listening to the way she ended the call

i was left blank and feeling rather bad and perhaps abit uphappy

i could not figure out the reason why i was feeling so

perhaps all these reminds me of how i was treated last time

both the scenes look alike but i know they're actually different

just i cant differentiate them

and after all

i felt like i was again in the phobia

these reminds me of the past and the phobia

perhaps i need some time

i do not know

=)

i remember my promise

and i know my promise is still on pending

depeding on the reactions of the other two peoples

i don't mean to hurt you, through any words or any promise

and seriously i did not i have hurt you

it was my bad and sincerely,

I'm Sorry =]

and

I will try my best to realise my promise

the first and ever promise i've made to you

don't cry

keep your tears

because we are far apart

and i could not realise my second promise

i could not wipe away your tears

=)

and again all these 2 promises are depending on the other two

i cant decide it till the day before i realise it

i will try my best

what we can do is

keep our fingers crossed and hope for the best

sutdy hard yea k=)

All I Wanted To Say

i'm sorry

although i've repeated it for few times

but this is what i've to say

i've tried my best to twist my words to suit the situation

and to avoid bad feelings from approaching her

yet i need to express what i want to

i cant stand seeing another one repeating thing that i've done before

she is a good girl

she doesnt deserve to be hurt

someone taught me a lesson in the past

i learnt it and i wish to teach her too

i know her friends have lectured her alot in the school

and she was frustrated

yet i did the same thing again

im sorry

yet i still need to continue

i dont wish to see another 'MC' again

and i dont wish to see her being hurt

no matter what outcome it would be

i hope one day she will understand what i wished to express just now

that's all i wanted to say

and no worries i've nothing more to say and to mumble

everything happened tonight remind me of the past

and somehow has indirectly resuscitated/enhanced the phobia

no one's fault and no one to be blamed

it's just a natural phenomena or a reflex reaction i should say

*in case u're here to leave a comment, be anonymous, i don't wish to br

ing trouble to u*

and to others :

stop disturbing while im in serious mood

stop instructing me what to do

i know what i am doing

and im clear with what i am doing

dont cross my border line and piss me off please

thanks

nites

Being frank being matured

back to 2006

few years back when i first fell in love

i felt good as it was just like a miracle to find someone who cares me

well after years

what i got is not what i expect

besides hurt

it's still hurt

i do the wrong things

i apologize

she does the wrong things

i apologize, too

i can forgive and froget anything

but not betrayal

i forgive other for many times

4 times i should say

at least this is the figure i know

im told that unknown one are not counted yet

lol

forgive her again and again

having her promise that there will not be next time anymore

wishing that she will really wake up one day

but what i get is the same, again

nothing changes, except her love towards me

what hurt the most was that

there was actually another case happening while i was promised that there won't be any, anymore

i was cheated

well this was not the last time

and alright, enough of that

eveyone has a border line

and she crossed mine

i used to blame but now i wont blame her anymore

she has the right to choose

or who knows it might be my fault to cause her to opt for another path

since she has chosen the one whom she feels that he's right for her

i'll respect her decision and sincerely i wish that she'll live in a happier way

since border line was crossed

i amd forced to make a decision

i had made a best decision ever

and thanks God i did it right

and i've never regretted on the decision made =)

not only i found that life is much more wonderful after then

but i do realise that i deserve a better one

and i found someone who really cares me

loyal simple understanding and great

im leaving in just another 2 weeks time

thus i could not give her any promise

and i do not want to give any

i know myself well

im not playful and im not interested in flirting

but i might need to spend at least 3years time in Florida

another part of world which has a 12-hour time difference with malaysia

and frankly speaking nobody knows what will happen, in florida, in malaysia

if soemthing goes wrong the promise might turn into a killing weapon

pushing her or myself all the way down to the valley

and i do not want to have that

neither do i want to experience that again

so despites of the phobia,

this is the reason i do not want to give her promise

and neither do i want a promise from her, although i believe in her promise =)

i've spoken to her honestly

and luckily she is understanding and matured girl

this is what i cherish the most

we agreed and reached a consensus

i'll do my best and she will do her very best

i believe in fate and i hope she does too

if it's yours, it will be yours, no matter how far it is from you

if it's not yours, it will not be yours forever, no matter how much you yearn for it

although these words might be hurtful but these are what i learnt from the experience

and it is a plus to my maturity in love

maturity understanding and faith

are the essence of love

and they are essential in love

so promise me

don't cry cause of the words i've written

don't count down and cry for me few times a day

i feel heartache to see and to hear that

*wipe tears*

and do remember

we are still staying connected even we're few thosuand miles apart=)

your mug will definitely deserve a place in my luggage to florida=)

time to sleep

nights

0410

Singapore Trip @ 25072009

i'm in singapore now

and yea liverpool fc is in singapore too

but sadly i've no chance to watch the match

todya i took TR 423 from PEN to SIN

and we landed at Changi and docked at the budget terminal

this is my first flight with Tiger Airways

and hey they are way much better than our local low cost carrier,

Airasia.

the most interesting part was that I was allowed to enter the cockpit!

after greeting the Captain and the First Officer

the Captain offered me to take his seat 

and he will take photo for me

hahhahahahahahhah!!! this has brought me to the cloud nine!!!

this is my 4th time visiting the cockpit

1st - being invited to visit cockpit while travelling on Qantas as a little kid(should be Boeing 744)

2nd -  i had requested to visit the cockpit (after landing as i understand that there is restriction) once i entered the Boeing 772. but the male cabin attendant directly made the request to the Captain, and I was allowed to enter the cockpit! Captain is a Penangite as well, from St.Xaviers.

3rd - i told my friend, Chankin who is working as a pilot with airasia few weeks before the departure to hong kong with junyi, a good friend of me. Chankin swapped to our flight and we both were greeted and invited to the cockpit by him after we landed in Hong Kong Int'l Airport.

4th - i made a cockpit visit request to the CA standing right beside the cockpit door after we have landed at Changi. because i saw the cockpit door is opened and the Captain was standing there. as expected, he brought me into the cockpit! Hooray!!! this leaves a good impression of Tiger Airways,despite of the overall performance..hahahahh!!!

back to the topic

this will be a short 3 days shopping trip

i managed to grab the limit zero fares from tigerairways.com

and all i need to pay is the taxes n charges

the two ways flight ticket costs only rm182 =D

sis's flight with Jetstar which was scheduled to depart at 9.05am, 

has been delayed to 2.45pm 

so i've reached s'pore at 1.30pm, with take off time at 12.10pm from Penang

and thus, i've travelled using SMRT and strolled around at the Bugis area

i 'awarded' myself a delicious lunch after starving for whole morning

i took my lunch HIP DINER USA, with the '1 FOR 1 OFFER' =)

Ordered an American Double Chilies Burger and Grilled Honey Barbeque Chicken,

with a glass of Chocolate flavored Coke.

They cost me SGD 18.83 but they are tasty! =D

will be flying back on monday 27 July 2009

i've bought a pair of long pants from G2000, 

with 40% discount + additional 10% discount for tourist

hope that i could get more good deals, esp the shirts or pants these few days

it's 4am and it's time to sleep

nights=)

0400

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- Untitled -

somehow

out of sudden

I miss you

so much 

=)

12.31 am

24 July 09

Thanks Xy ;)

how long i've not been chatting through the phone

through the night for almost 6 hours non-stop

how long i've not been chatting through the phone

and are concerned sincerely even with just light coughing from me

how long i've not been chatting through the phone

till my ears are feeling slightly 'numb' 

how long i've not been chatting through the phone

and get to share my feelings & thoughts and getting other's agreement on them

how long i've not been chatting through the phone

with joyous tone and are full of fun

how long i've not been chatting through the phone

and are forced to sleep within a certain period of time

how long i've not been chatting through the phone

and get praised honestly and not as joke

------------

I got it all tonight

thanks to xy;)

i ♥ simplicity

two months back

i made a right choice 

i made a correct decision

the best of all in my lifetime

i feel good

really really good

i made a decision that brings away all the worries

i made a decision that brings me all the happiness

which i've been longing for

i love my life

although i'm leaving really soon

but somehow i enjoy my life now

thanks to her for walking past my life 

in few years time i learnt much

the next one will be well-cared and well-loved

and even more well-pampered

as i believe the she will deserve all i've done to her

and even more than that

because girl who seldom or never ask for more

deserves more

because she cherishes it

this is the essence of love

kiss will always be my ultimate goal

keep it simple & sweet

i ♥ simplicity 

before ending this post

i would love to thanks to another her

bringing me the happiness i've been yearning

the concern and everything

they are so simple

yet so nice

u rocks

nites

=)

AUP Poolside Gala + Coffee Island + Tanjung Bungah + Jelutong

Today (17/07/2009) went for the Inti Aup Poolside Gala at G-Hotel.

It was kinda grand but frankly, it did not really amazed me. 

Anyhow, I paid the RM65 to join, is to give myself some memories before I leave.

Most of the enjoyable moments were the moments where we take photos together.

No much programs were held cause of restriction of the organizer, AUPEC.

They wished to make it grand and classy.

In fact it were. Well, to be frank, it's little bit boring. 

Fortunately I did bring along my camera. I enjoyed photo shooting that night. 

Most of the photographers were using DSLR while I was using my compact camera. 

but I truly enjoyed it and I am satisfied with the outcome. haha!

The month before I was still complaining that as an Inti student I don't even have a Inti t-shirt.

Few days later, I went for the pre-event lucky draw for the AUP Poolside Gala.

I drew an Inti t-shirt! 

During the Poolside Gala itself, 

my number, 114 is drawn again.

I get another Inti t-shirt.

The next prize is a water boiler, and I get the t-shirt first before they draw for the next winner.

what the......

the funny thing was that my number 113 is again drawn, 

and the prize was a set of mini speaker I think.

No one went up and I suggested to exchange the t-shirt with it. haha!!

but they don't allow and the prize went to the next drawn winner, Mr. Ooi Kok Keong, our Deputy Head of AUP.

Later on only I was told by YinQi that they simple wrote another number on a ticket they steal and they wrote 114. That's why my number was drawn twice! haha!

Besides,

I do et a friend that I do not really wish to meet, but since all were there, I don't mind. Whee!

What amazed me was that the feeling I had. 

Damn. I had no feeling at all. 

Wohoo, what's wrong?! @.@

Oops, it should be 'Yea I did it right!'

Instead, I felt kind of irritating with most of the things done by that friend.

The things done were so fake and smile that other friends gave were so fake too, that I could feel that all were just eng siu-ing that friend. Pity. Ha! =p

I heard the same thing from friends too, when I was yum cha-ing with friends previously.

Again, pity. cause that friend will never know that. Ha!

Alright enough of rubbish talk. 

We went to Coffee Island from G-Hotel. 

After some talks and some photo sessions, we headed to Tanjung Bungah Wan Tan Mee!

I drove myself and Leong, Kern Lik by himself, 

while Khai Pern and Celvez drove another two cars, 

taking along Jin Yang, Kuan Ee and Evonne Lim.

We sped all the way up to the Tanjung Bungah Market! 

Haha!!

It was fun, but we knew it was really dangerous.

Safety comes first, we slowed down where we think we should. =D

But I'll never forgot the scene which I saw 3 cars, driving fast at a parallel way.

I saw 2 Myvi(s) and 1 Accord were following me, but they were driven in a parallel way.

Cool! Haha!!

At there, we ordered 8 plates of wan tan and fried 48 wan tan. =D

Again, we suggested to go for third round, Jelutong Economic Rice, which Leong has been missing it much.

It was ad 1am ++. Again, 4 cars sped through out the journey.

This time was much more horrible than the previous one.

I will remember how KP took over me and shot into my front side with both car speeding at hundred something Km/H. KP, salute! Haha!!

Well the funniest thing is that, we came all the way from Tanjung Bungah to Jelutong, but NONE of us ordered the rice cause we were still full.

Owh yea, not to forget how has Evone praised me! 

Hahahahh!!

She told me that my body size is just perfect.

Girls will feel secured standing beside me.

haha!

Alright, 

time to sleep.

It's already 4.05am

Nights guys.

Cheers~!

17072009